Currently listening to: Taking Chances (Glee version, of course :))
So I decided i wanted to start a blog yesterday and i promised myself that i would write my first one today. However, a lot of shit happened today, and i'm in kind of a bad mood, so prepare for lots of teenage angsty rambling.
ok, lets back up. Hi, I'm Alex. :) I'm 15, sofmore at CHS (GO WOLVES!!) ((lol who am i kidding i dont follow sports)). I'm ridiculously tall and klutzy. that's about all you need to know i guess. on to my problems. lol. i feel kind of embarrased. esspecialy if certain people read this. speaking (well, typing) of people reading this, please no one send this to my parents or anyone else in my family. it would be very mean of you to do so, as I'm probably gonna bitch about them a lot on here x) well mostly just today. but yea x) thanx.
Let me start by saying RIP Zeus. My kitty died on Friday :( this is the reason im so pissed off at my parents. I'm not normally one to just complain and bitch at my parents, I really usually keep my problems to myself, but then sometimes i explode. I suppose that the point in this blog. anyways, back to my kitty. (you see, this is why you dont let me talk without restrictions. i ramble. a lot) My kitty was obviously very sick for weeks. he started to loose all the color in his face, and his fur is all white so he just looked horribly ill and pale.he also lost a BUNCH of weight, and he could barely walk straight. I kept telling my parents he needed to go to the vet. do you know what my mom said? she said that he was just old and sick and was going to die anyways and that she wasnt going to spend the time and money to help him get better. how horrible is that? she kept saying that he probably had a brain tumor and there was nothing the vets could do. There was no way she could know that. she just likes to pretend she knows everyting and cant stan to ever be wrong about anything, which is ironic because she is usually wrong about everything. Me and my dad have just stopped trying to correct her. so because she is a selfish and cheap bitch, my cat died. sure, its annoying to live with someone like that, but something DIED because of it. thats just to far. I honestly considered calling animal protective services, but i didnt want the drama. i really regret that now, they could have saved Zeus. btw, if ur wondering how my dad fits into this, he didnt want to get in a fight with my mom about the whole ordeal. my daily life pretty much consists of me and my dad trying not to piss off my mother, cuz its just not worth it. if you keep reading this blog, you will figure out that i really really love my dad, he is the best dad ever, but i cant honestly say that I love my mom. that sounds horrible, but i just dont. she is one of the most agrivating people i've ever met.
another crappy thing that hapened today is that i didnt make it into the school play. this honestly really really upset me. i know that sounds so stupid, but i wanted to do it so bad. ever since i was in like 5th grade, ive known i wanted to be in CHS theater. but now that i'm involved i feel like i really dont fit in with the group. My parents never really wanted me to be involved in things like theater and choir, cuz its so much out of school effort and somethimes money. and its not like we are short on money, my mom will spend thousands of dolars on her stupid fishtank, but wont spend any money on anything but herself, like my cat, or a tshirt for school. but anyways i just feel like my parents dont want me in theater, and I dont fit in with the people in theater, and i cant make it into a play, so why am i even doing this? but i was really upet at lunch, and ate alone. so SHOUTOUT to Raven, who was the only person to come over and ask if i was ok. i denied anything was wrong at the time, but the fact that you cared means alot :)
sigh. i feel like im complaining alot. I hate people who do nothing but complain, its so annoying. and its always people who have average lives. they are like "my mom isnt home cuz shes at work. and i'm failing biology, and my mom grounded me for not doing my laundry. my life is HORRIBLEEEEEEE" i HATE that. i hate anybody with a negative attitude. i just cant stand it. i always try to stay positive (with exceptions of course. like today x))
But anyway, i thought i would break down today in APAC cuz of all the people who made it into the play, and all the discussion about it. but even though i still felt like i didnt exactly fit in with the people, you cant surround yourself with the people in that class and not be happy. you guys are just amazing.
Well tis has been a very long and over analyzed blog, so I'm just gonna try to end it here.
to end on a lighter note, I'm eating a bag of Jelly Bellys. I havet had any of these in like 3 year, but i still know what flavor each one is. i think this is awesome. lol
Well this has been super long, and probably doesnt make sense at times, and there are probably lots of typos but i dont feel like going over it. so yea. bye bye
Currently Listening To: Ordinary Girl by Hannah Montana (dont hate)
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