I Stink at Making Titles...

Why am I so bad with titles???? obviously, you can tell im not too good with them by looking at the titles of my previous blogs. WOAH  I CAN WRITE IN DIFFERENT COLORS!!!!! Sorry, got distracted there. anyways, title. Its not just blogs. I can write a great awesome amazing poem in English (not to brag) but then i cant think of a good title. its so annoying!! Or I will write song lyrics, and come up with some lame title. Its so agrivating :( And Simon, who probably doesnt even read my blog, always has these amazingly clever and funny titles for his blog. stupid Simon. :P

So now I guess I have to think of something else to write about. I can tell this is gonna be just like very diary I've ever had. I have about 20 diarys with like 3 entries. Because I always say I'm gonna start to write everyday, then I give up x) I really dont have an interesting enough life to have something to write about all the time. So I guess I'm just gonna list a bunch of random facts about me now.

1. I have an Astigmatism in my left eye
2. It took me way longer than it should have to figure out which side was my left or right when typing the last fact.
3. I'm really good at math
4. right now, I am only taking 3 core classes, and 4 electives at school. I dont have to take a history, so I'm taking Honors Chem, Honors English, and Honors Year 3 Math. Then for electives I'm taking 2 choirs, theater, and dance.
5. I REALLYREALLYREALLY wish I could dance. I think dance is really beautiful and whenever I just dance when no one is watching is such a great feeling of release and expressing myself. i wish I had the skill to do like real dancing, not uncoordinated bedroom dancing.
6. I know I look really white, but I'm actually 1/4 Indian on my mom's side. thats like asia indian, not like native american indian.
7. I have been a very high soprano all my life, but now my voice is deepening and I cant really hit the high notes anymore. this doesnt sound bad, but it kind of is. I could probably switch to Alto in choir, but I'm also in Treblemakers, which is a women's barbershop group and I'm the highest part in there too. there is a very precise balance to how many people are in each part, and I can't really switch parts. I havent told Mama Lyford (my choir teacher) about this yet :/ I'm really nervous about this.
8. I'm in APAC, the advanced theater class at my school. I LOVE theater and acting, but I honestly dont think I'm very good at it, and I dont think the people in that class like me very much :(
9. I own over 100 colors of nail polish
10. I own over 100 colors of eyeshadow
11. I know all the Jelly Belly flavors by appearance.
12. I hate Cola. It tastes like mold
13. I have really screwed up knees and legs. like they are all bendy and not straight.
14. Sometimes I do this weird curved arabesque thing that looks really graceful, but its really just a good way to crack my back.
15. Anthem by Ayn Rand is one of my all time favorite books. normally i hate school assigned books, but that one is just amazing.
16. i make really cool Duct tape wallets with lots of card slots, and even a clear slot for your ID. I have lots of colors of duct tape. anyone want one? :)
17. hanging on the wall around my bed are a bunch of playbills and sheet music and just anything of that sort. I like to fall asleep surrounded by what I love.
18. I am agnostic, not Atheist. Atheists truly believe that there is no God, while agnostics are just not sure, as they have no solid evidence of anything. I am a very logical person, and I just cant bring myself to believe in something I cant prove and have no evidence of. I wish I could. I have a lot of admiration for people who can put all their faith in something like that.
19. Currently, my favorite movie is Mr. Holland's Opus. It isnt very popular, so if you havent seen it, you should go rent it now. its REALLY good.
20. Smoking really disgusts me. like it makes me want to gag.
21. I hate when people hate on celebrities. Even if what they are saying is true, you could be nicer about it. Like I hate the way kristen stewart acts, but you dont have to be total douchebags about it! Just say that you personally dont like their work. Dont bash them personally! they are people too.
22. I am a natural blonde. It seems obvious, but some people seem to think i'm not
23. I am a HORRIBLE speller. thank god for spell check
24. I am missing the "s" and "up arrow" keys on my keyboard and it is making me mad right now
25. Guys with green eyes= HOT
26. I develop crushes really easily. I've had a crush on SOOOOOOOO many guys its stupid. but most of the time it doesnt last long.
27. I'm really quiet unless I'm around I feel really comfortable with. Then I can be pretty loud, but I'm still a very introverted person. Unless I've had sugar.  then you might need earplugs
28. I have the ugliest pinky toe nails in the world. they are like weirdly curved, and just...ew.
29. I love Miley Cyrus, Demi Lovato, and High School Musical. But not in that obbsesive screaming fangirl way. i just enjoy their music/storyline.
30. I have never been on an airplane
31. I like the brown m&ms because when i was little I was convinced they were chocolate flavored. i'm still convinced they are better than the other ones.
32. I can't think of anymore facts x)

Excercizing my fingers?

so interesting story, apparently a good percentage of the population often tries to spell "exercise" as "excercize". well at least a good percentage of the people in my zero hour. We had a whole discussion about it in class. sure, we were supposed to be looking for archetypes in disneys version of pocahontas, but whatever :)

speaking of my zero hour, i have english. now i have a few things to say about english teachers. I HATE how they see the need to talk like snobby bitches (sorry to my younger readers. lol) when they give assignments. like they can be cool the rest of the time, but when it comes to giving an assignment, they just say that you have to do this exactly my way because im always right and i dont want to hear about it and no complaining kthxbye. and the rules they put on it is usually stupidly illogical and strict. like they are just trying to come up with ways to establish that they are all powerful. ugh, that just pisses me off so much. and its not just the rules, its that tone of voice they use. it makes me want to punch stuff. like seriously. i feel like im saying "like" a lot. sorry.

Another thing that pisses me off when teachers do it is when they give like a pretest and say something like "i know you are going to fail this, i expect you to fail this since it is your first one" but then they count it in the grade book. its like, are you TRYING to make us all fail? you havent taught us this, why should it go in the gradebook??? sigh, enough ranting about teachers, on to another super random subject.

well its friday the 13th. oooo scary. not really. in fact i had a pretty good day, better than most of the week. and i acctually accomplished a lot in dance today. i held my eleve for more than .0000004 seconds. lol acctually i hel it for like a good 30 seconds :) and my cambre was pretty epic if i may say so myself.

My math teacher is vietnamese, and has a pretty strong accent, and sometimes just messes up words. like instead of saying two thirds, she says two turds. everybody always laughs, which makes the maturity level in the classroom drop about 10 points, but whatever. anyways, today "phantom of the Opera" was in one of the word problems, but she said "Phantom of the Oprah" i almost died laughing. i really want to make like ashort film about some creepy masked figure seducing Oprah now. that would be awesome.

So i think i will talk about bookends now. So Bookends is something that we do in the theater class I am in. we take childrens stories, then we adapt them into scripts and make little mini performances out of them. then we go to all the elementry schools in town and peform them. its really cute, and its coming along really well. there is just one thing that has been really frutrating for me. one of my characters is supposed to have a sort of gravely voice. i cant for the life of me do that. idk why, i just cant. so i have no idea what im doing for the voice of that character. it is making me soooooo frustrated!! sigh.

i would like to announce that right now i am reading Miles to Go, which is Miley Cyrus's autobiography. i am reading it and i dont care what you think!!! its really good and funny, and I LOVE MILEY CYRUS!!! :D

Well thats all the random topics i have for you today, see you sometime.

Loud teachers and pirates and dreams, OH My!!!

you know what i absolutly hate? when you cant think of the word you are thinking of. that doesnt even make sense! its like you know what word you want to use, you just cant think of it. its like right there, right on the tip of your tounge, but your mind is rebeling against you. i hate that. well most people probably hate that, but i just felt like sharing :)

anyhooooooo i've been having really weird dreams lately. they all revolve around this guy, who shall remain nameless for the sake of my dignity. I dont like this guy. i mean, i like him, he a really col guy, but i dont LIKE him, if u know what i mean. but in all my dreams, for some reason i have an epic crush on him. like its a dream about us flirting, or one about everyone saying "We,know you like him, come on its so OBVIOUS!!!" so weirddd!!!!! and for a few seconds after i wake up I'm stil in the mindset of liking him, then suddenly I'm like WOAH!! NO!! NOT RIGHT!!! lol.

So here's a question, when you see other people writing in like a certain font, do you try to copy it? Cuz I've always done that. like when someone does some cool bubble letters, you start doing it the way they do? anyways I was in APAC yesterday and my friend Serene was making a sign for one of the thingys we're doing. she starts to write in this super cool girly font, so I try to copy it. but when i do it, it looks like pirate font x) like it looks like something you'd see on a treasure map. so on one hand, i cant write as pretty as Serene, but I can now write in pirate font :)

BTW, my ear hurts right now. it has all day because my chem teacher was standing right by me all class, and he talks SOOOOOO loud. its ridiculous.

Right now I'm loving how Taylor Swift puts little allusions to good books in her songs. Like in Tied Together With a Smile, she mentions the "golden one", which is from Anthem, one of my all time favorite books :)

so thats it for today, its pretty random

OH!! I'd also like to mention that Mike Simmons is a not nice person. He's a meany. I think he needs to sit in a corner and think about what he's done. :)

Hi Brett!!! :D

Alex+Rambling+Overemotional=Pointlessly Long First Blog

Currently listening to: Taking Chances (Glee version, of course :))

So I decided i wanted to start a blog yesterday and i promised myself that i would write my first one today. However, a lot of shit happened today, and i'm in kind of a bad mood, so prepare for lots of teenage angsty rambling.

ok, lets back up. Hi, I'm Alex. :) I'm 15, sofmore at CHS (GO WOLVES!!) ((lol who am i kidding i dont follow sports)). I'm ridiculously tall and klutzy. that's about all you need to know i guess. on to my problems. lol. i feel kind of embarrased. esspecialy if certain people read this. speaking (well, typing) of people reading this, please no one send this to my parents or anyone else in my family. it would be very mean of you to do so, as I'm probably gonna bitch about them a lot on here x) well mostly just today. but yea x) thanx.

Let me start by saying RIP Zeus. My kitty died on Friday :( this is the reason im so pissed off at my parents. I'm not normally one to just complain and bitch at my parents, I really usually keep my problems to myself, but then sometimes i explode. I suppose that the point in this blog. anyways, back to my kitty. (you see, this is why you dont let me talk without restrictions. i ramble. a lot) My kitty was obviously very sick for weeks. he started to loose all the color in his face, and his fur is all white so he just looked horribly ill and pale.he also lost a BUNCH of weight, and he could barely walk straight. I kept telling my parents he needed to go to the vet. do you know what my mom said? she said that he was just old and sick and was going to die anyways and that she wasnt going to spend the time and money to help him get better. how horrible is that? she kept saying that he probably had a brain tumor and there was nothing the vets could do. There was no way she could know that. she just likes to pretend she knows everyting and cant stan to ever be wrong about anything, which is ironic because she is usually wrong about everything. Me and my dad have just stopped trying to correct her. so because she is a selfish and cheap bitch, my cat died. sure, its annoying to live with someone like that, but something DIED because of it. thats just to far. I honestly considered calling animal protective services, but i didnt want the drama. i really regret that now, they could have saved Zeus. btw, if ur wondering how my dad fits into this, he didnt want to get in a fight with my mom about the whole ordeal. my daily life pretty much consists of me and my dad trying not to piss off my mother, cuz its just not worth it. if you keep reading this blog, you will figure out that i really really love my dad, he is the best dad ever, but i cant honestly say that I love my mom. that sounds horrible, but i just dont. she is one of the most agrivating people i've ever met.

another crappy thing that hapened today is that i didnt make it into the school play. this honestly really really upset me. i know that sounds so stupid, but i wanted to do it so bad. ever since i was in like 5th grade, ive known i wanted to be in CHS theater. but now that i'm involved i feel like i really dont fit in with the group. My parents never really wanted me to be involved in things like theater and choir, cuz its so much out of school effort and somethimes money. and its not like we are short on money, my mom will spend thousands of dolars on her stupid fishtank, but wont spend any money on anything but herself, like my cat, or a tshirt for school. but anyways i just feel like my parents dont want me in theater, and I dont fit in with the people in theater, and i cant make it into a play, so why am i even doing this? but i was really upet at lunch, and ate alone. so SHOUTOUT to Raven, who was the only person to come over and ask if i was ok. i denied anything was wrong at the time, but the fact that you cared means alot :)

sigh. i feel like im complaining alot. I hate people who do nothing but complain, its so annoying. and its always people who have average lives. they are like "my mom isnt home cuz shes at work. and i'm failing biology, and my mom grounded me for not doing my laundry. my life is HORRIBLEEEEEEE" i HATE that. i hate anybody with a negative attitude. i just cant stand it. i always try to stay positive (with exceptions of course. like today x))

But anyway, i thought i would break down today in APAC cuz of all the people who made it into the play, and all the discussion about it. but even though i still felt like i didnt exactly fit in with the people, you cant surround yourself with the people in that class and not be happy. you guys are just amazing.

Well tis has been a very long and over analyzed blog, so I'm just gonna try to end it here.

to end on a lighter note, I'm eating a bag of Jelly Bellys. I havet had any of these in like 3 year, but i still know what flavor each one is. i think this is awesome. lol

Well this has been super long, and probably doesnt make sense at times, and there are probably lots of typos but i dont feel like going over it. so yea. bye bye

Currently Listening To: Ordinary Girl by Hannah Montana (dont hate)